Been MIA cause of:
-Dieting entailing all home cooked food (it's not easy! it eats up a lot of my time :P)
-Moving houses, dealing with a flood in the house, and ummm now another move...my landlord is a lying cheapo...getting really bad vibes from him and the house...so sayonara new house (which I have only been in for 2 months!). And hellooooo new beginnings! Let's see what awaits me ;)
-A lot of travelling for work and for fun ;)
-And last but not least...a lotta of acting action and press coverage!
- launch of the 1st all female stand up comedy troupe in the middle east...and yes ladies and gents, we rocked the crowds over in laughter
- hosting a huge artistic dance endeavor where the dancers were so hawwwt that the house came down in flames...literally! yeah...evacuating the audience...dealing with disbelieving dancers...not good at all
What's hot and happening:
Yeah baby...I am on my journey of unloading the pounds! By the way, huge unbelievable will power. At least now it is confirmed that what I want I now how to get! I'm doing an allergy approach to dieting. Basically staying away from the foods that hurt my body type and blood type. It freaking works. I'm blown away. I had given up all hope: was exercising incessantly, living on chicken and salad, and sticking to veggie options for snacks. But it wasnt working. Where was I going wrong?! In all honesty, I dont know where I was going wrong. All I know is that this is SO going right. I have been alcohol free for 2.5 months (yeah a bit depressing...imagine me in Beirut in BO18 sober...I still had fun but not as much as my actual intoxicated potential would have allowed). Also, I am always the designated driver...happy side is that I am a safe sober driver! I have been carb free for 2.5 months (basically the only carbs I have are in the morning so I have energy for the remainder of the day). OH Oh ohhhhh anddddd I am eating FISH! Yes, it IS big news. I havent eaten fish since I was 7 years old. And now it is what I have everyday for lunch. It was hard at the beginning (still is sometimes). I basically feel my stomach scrunching up in agony every time I place a bite in my mouth(that could also be driving my weight loss...lack of appetite!). So now I eat grilled salmon, hammour, and sea bass. I have realized how i like my fish:
-boneless (i panic if i see the bones)
-skinless (totally grossed out if it's with skin)
-grilled and NOT fried. I accidentally had fried fish...and erghhhhhhh! I was going to die from the agony!
Other diet changes include having soya milk and no lactose milk. No diary products in general (I miss my feta!!!). Ofcourse no sweets, cakes, ice cream, etc.
I'm not complaining. I have lost 10 kilos and went down 2 jeans sizes. I am loving it. I can bend down and tie my shoe lace! wooohooo! barty barty!
What's humid and dampening:
Well, I have been sober for a long time. I cant eat most foods (cant have dairy, carbs, any soda - diet or not diet -, any alcohol, any yoghurt, any sweets...). I dont have any vices left! No chocolate to drown my sorrows in...no alcohol to obliterate my surroundings...no comfort food...yes in my head I am swearing right now (very bad words and very loudly!). So, what do I have. sadly and not in line with my character, my only vice is cigarettes :( Now how low is that? I need it when i go out to get some kinda buzz (it's sad to even type these words...I used to be my own drug - my own all inclusive self entertainment system - to create my own buzz with no external influences. and now I am reduced to this! Waaaaaaaaa!!!!! Chimney system...smoke filling heart attacking person! Another reason (and not an excusable one may i say) to smoke: appetite suppressant. i am monster. i have turned into a hog :( waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
another really bad situation i am in is lack of exercise. i can come up with a zillion excuses. but in life there are priorities and i have put exercising into the back burner. dont you ever think of doing that. exercise is a mood enhancer and energy booster. the adrenalin rush makes life look and feel good. so, yes, i am doing myself a mis-justice. i have to exercise. other than for the superficial excuse of looks (but i guess this whole blog is semi based on the superficial inclinations of physical appearances) but also for the soul. it's the chicken soup for the soul. the worm for the fish. the worm in the tequila. the flakes of gold in the goldschlager. ok, you get the point. i guess all preachers have their moments of weakness and submit to sloth. but i will overcome this sin. i will fight it. i will exercise. i will get a natural high. i will stop smoking so i can get that natural high without getting a freaking pulmonary attack first...
It took me 2 years to pile on the pounds. so, a few months of pain and self control is nothing in retrospect. i can do it. you can do it. if u really really want it. if u really really want to.
Ok, my rantings of sustenance (or the lack of) needs to sign off now. Hopefully my next update will NOT be in the next 2 months!
oh, by the way, my deadline for my blog and my dieting regiment was supposed to be 1st of July. That's next week. In case I dont write any other updates, I just want to say that I did it. I virtually pat myself on the back. I seriously say, it can be done. Believe in yourself. And yes, unconventional methods might work. You just gotta keep on trying. There is always a way to get what you want. You just have to want it bad and to fight for it. Basically it is survival of the fittest ;)
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